The New Year’s Rollercoaster

At the top of the hill the view is amazing, the fireworks, the toasts, the celebration, ‘Happy New Year’ we all shout, with our hands in the air. At the top I think I can achieve great things in the coming year. Be my best. Get fit, eat perfectly, lose weight & never feel sad. I can be super woman! Yipeeeee

But then comes the fall. I race down the other side of the dipper at a surprising speed. By mid New Year’s day I’m realising I was wrong! What was I thinking? That is not realistic!

Maybe this year should be my year of RELAXATION.   A year where I finally learn how to slow down. I have so much to be grateful for & appreciate. Perhaps it’s more about enjoying things, all the great food rather than restricting it. Taking walks, swims & bike rides because I enjoy them. What if I’m exactly where I need to be & exactly who I’m meant to be. I want to do things because they give happiness & peace, but also learn to find joy in the simple ordinary things. Like a day at home.

I often have this overwhelming urge to achieve something, do more and be better. It’s tiring & it breeds depression & dissatisfaction. It’s also not helpful to those around me.

I am who I am.

2015 Parkins 080I don’t like rollercoasters anymore. I used to. Now I’d prefer a peaceful boat ride.  A kayak, to drift a bit, enjoy the scenery, put in a bit of effort when it’s needed.

Today is another day. Don’t let it overwhelm you like it did me. New years can be a challenging time.

Let me finish by putting a tune in your head, one that came to me while I was writing this post:  “I can see clearly now” originally by Jimmy Cliff

“I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all the obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright) Sun-Shiny day.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSuB4t3q_dA

4 thoughts on “The New Year’s Rollercoaster

  1. Awww Meg. I think we need to be all those things, and have all the feelings that you have expressed in order to be a rounded person. Don’t be hard on yourself. On the days you feel like being superwoman…be it! On the days you don’t…don’t! I think the peaceful boat ride sounds perfect. Today 😉

  2. Both of these posts could have been written from my mind. They so delay resonate wit me, I feel we would get on famously in person, or else be fuel for each other’s constantly changing thoughts 🙂 hehe x

    1. Hi Sam, thank you! I agree & think we would get on well. Glad we are Blogging buddies! 🙂 It’s always so nice when someone really gets what you write about. Sorry for the late reply, I’ve had writers block & haven’t even been on my blog for ages!

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